I haven't been writing as much. Partially because I have very little time while I'm student teaching, partially because I feel I'm writing pretty much the same things day after day. Rough day, busy, depressed, miss my husband who did me wrong. I feel like a country song- and I much prefer bluegrass.
This weekend I've managed to keep from sliding into the abyss of depression I usually sink into around 4 pm on Friday and can't manage to slip out of until sometime Monday or Tuesday. The depression this weekend was still there, but only skimming the surface.
Wish I had more time to spend with my dog. Wish that I was spending this weekend with my husband instead of by myself.
I'm still writing despite the long time since comments were posted last. That's okay. I still feel it's important for me to get my feelings out even if they are repetitive and illogical. I know he did me wrong-repeatedly and incessantly. I know I would be better off, that he's mentally ill and treats me badly. But he's still my husband and I still love him despite the fact that it would be much easier on me if I didn't.
I don't know what I'm going to do once student teaching is over and I'm not busy any more and I'll have a lot of time to think about being miserable.
It's not perfect, but it's worth it.
About Me
- Clio
- I'm a full time adjunct history teacher, an avid reader and entertainment missionary, a devoted dog mom, running addict and evidently, blogger, enjoying the happiness of finally working at the entry level of a profession I enjoy and finding someone who cares about me.
1 comment:
You visited my blog, so I thought I would repay the favor. I know what you mean about feeling repetative in your blogging, but continue on. It really does help. It sounds strange, but somedays blogging seems like the only adult I talk to that I tell everything, you know?. I am sending well wishes your way and will check in with you again.
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